So basically life is good. i mean i'm super super busy with cheerleading, but that's how the story goes. i mean at times it feels like i'm out of control with everything i have to do. i get home from cheer at 6pm. then i do homework until like frickin' 10:30. ah! and what's even worse is that i eat so much. i fit into a size two again. yay for me, but i just wanna stay here. the only weird thing is, i didn't DO anything to fit back into a size two. it like happened, THANK GOD. lol but like yeah, i just don't wanna get fat. wow so i thought my self esteem was better, but now that i'm finally writing in here again, its not. wow, i just realized how much i miss xanga. like i have myspace, but big deal, its so not xanga and never will be!!! rock on Xanga!!! ya! lol

um, my parents.... they're like crazy, as always. i mean that hasn't changed since forever. there's times when we're more or less civil. and its seriously like an hourly thing. at one minute we're like cool, then they say something stupid or critisize me or chastize me on something TOTALLY retarded and i'm like "so i'm NOT taking that." and give them the cold sholder. bitchy? lol NO! but yeah, it just depends on our moods and what we're talking about. like COLLLEGE omg that is a bad topic for us to get into! holy cow. they are like "we're poor" you can't go to a big college alecia. and i'm like "i'm brilliant and i'm going to go wherever i want thank you! geeze. lol. i mean seriously tho i'm not going to some dumb-ass podunk college here, in the middle of nowhere. they keep saying we don't have the money, even with scholarships and i'm like "god damn how poor ARE we?" seriously, its not that hard. *sigh* anyways so tha'ts how things are going with them.

BOYS: always a favorite topic. well i went out with this kid this summer but lets say it didn't work out. i mean it worked for, A WEEK. ugh, i'm terrible i know. i've actually named my problem though! ready?

PRS: Post Relationship Syndrom

What it does: it affects girls (maybe guys, i dunno yet) who want a guy and once they get him, they stop liking him almos immediately. i think i have a very extreme case though, because unlike some girls i cannot even handle pretending to continue liking them. like if they want to kiss me or something i'm like "ew no" cuz i mean i DON'T like them. so what's the point of pretending and letting them kiss me or anything?

so yeah, that's how THAT went over. i mean i really liked this kid, UNTIL we started going out and then it was all over. i feel really bad for him too cuz he really liked me. and i just found out yesterday that he still REALLY does. like a lot. but that is so sad cuz i dont' feel the same way. but he's SO sweet and he's actually pretty good looking (FYI: i'm super super super shallow! like really. and i'm okay with it. they have to be gorgeous, which is maybe my relationships dont' work out, cuz they're not like model perfecet, hm...), so like I WISH i could like him. but *sigh* i can't. but i would'nt mind going to his prom with him. lol ~ but that's not till april or something.

PROM: the next subject! yayayay! i'm SOOO excited for prom. see i've never gone before cuz i just didn't feel liek going. but it's going to be special this year cuz it's JUNIOR prom and i'm a JUNIOR. lol but yeah, i kind of have a date. super weird. like this kid is supposed to ask, but lets just say that he hasn't. i guess he keeps wimping out,. oh well i g2g so i'll write more later! 

Currently Playing The Police - Greatest Hits By Police Don't Stand So Close to Me see related

Okay wow so guess what's happening NOW! So this girl from my track team comes up to me at like... 5th period and she's like "do you like Mr. Milliman?" see Mr. Milliman is this student teacher and he's only like 26. Well there's this hella funny song that like totally reminded me and Cassie about him. It’s called don’t stand so close to me by Police. I don’t know if you guys have heard it but it’s about this student teacher relationship thing and it like cracks us up because it totally reminded us of him. So we always joke about it and apparently someone heard and took it TOTALLY the wrong way. So now there is this UBER huge rumor about me LIKING HIM. Like omg EW! Not cool, and not right at all. So now everyone knows about it and are like talking about it 24/7. AHHH! I have never had a rumor spread about me ever. This is hardcore unappreciated. God I hate this. So on to happier topics.

Um… I finished this huge ass paper this weekend. Omg was it huge, six pages. But it wasn’t so bad because I wrote it on a topic I liked the fact that WE DIDN’T MAKE IT TOO THE MOON. Oh yes hate me for it, but it’s the truth. We never made it to the moon back in 1969. Anyone who does believe it is believing a giant lie that the government has spoon fed you. Lol I love sounding crazy like that, but still it’s true.

Now as for SCOTT! Holy cow is he being gay. I like can’t handle the fact that he doesn’t like ask me out. I just don’t understand guys and why if they LIKE SOMEONE they wont’ ASK HER OUT. I mean pretty soon it’s going to be too late and I’m going to not like him anymore. Like last time that happened, with my ex boyfriend. I liked him but it took him FOREVER to ask me out and by the time he finally did ask me, I didn’t like him anymore. lol ~ so the poor boy like finally asks me out and I don’t really like him, but I go out with him anyway event though the whole MONTH AND A HALF that we dated I didn’t like him. Lol I mean how funny is that??? Kind of sad…

Well that's all for now toodles.

Currently Playing United States of Whatever By Liam Lynch united states of whatever see related

Wow so last night was so much fun! I got to hang out with my uncle Jim from Canada. He kept teasing about how I’m going to have to visit him this summer. ROAD TRIP! Lol he’s so much cooler than my parents. I miss him already.

So yeah, Tuesday night was super fun! I went to youth group and had all of the guys from my youth group attack my car. It was frickin’ hilarious. All of the doors were open and I started to drive away with them all piled in my car on top of each other. Then I tried to kick them out but I was stupid and left my keys in the ignition! So Bryce gets in my car and starts to drive away! I was like omg what are you doing? He just started drivers ed so he’s only driven a car ONCE! Well like legally and all. I wasn’t too worried because he really did know how to drive. So yeah we went for a little spin and then we can back and I chilled with Scott for a while. It was great, crazy weird, but great.

God I am sooo bored lately. I mean with life in general. With my friends, school, parents, my clothes. EVERYTHING. I swear I need a serious jolt to something interesting. But what is there? I mean good God I live in Idaho! So I don’t know what to do. I just want to scream. Jump up and down and up and down until I dunno I fall over! Do I sound psycho I feel psycho. Crazy to be honest.

It was so weird yesterday I REALLY and I mean REALLY wanted to hurt something. Sound psycho? I just wanted to squeeze something until it cried in pain or make someone bleed. Wow maybe I shouldn’t write this stuff. But yeah, I just get like that every once in a while. It usually happens when I’m frustrated. Or annoyed. So I had to like CONTAIN myself and not hit the kid in front of me. I mean I LIKE the kid in front of me; he’s nice. But yeah I had “the urge” let’s just say.

Alright I’m going to go before I sound crazy and you never come back! Luv you guys!

Currently Playing Bathroom Wall By Jimmy Fallon see related

Okay so I had a little bit of time to check out some of u girly's sites. Super cute! Wow! I really need to PIMP OUT my site! Lol ~ but it'll be a while. Seriously whenever I update or look at your guys' sites people look at me like I’m crazy! God I’m like "shut the fuck up!" lol "these are my girly's sites so like step down!" so I CAN'T update at home and now I CAN'T update at school! WHERE CAN I UPDATE AT? My life is so fucked up.

So yeah, I’m soooo doing well at track now! I’m like uber-impressed with myself and like OMG I got THE HOTTEST pink spikes! Wow they are hott! Lol so yeah, on to boys

Scott is still being psycho! It’s bugging the shit out of me. I’m like, okay U like me and I like U so WHY don't you ask me out???? Boys are so f-ing dumb sometimes, well all of the time. I swear, its soooo true can't live with them and can't live without them.

Alright girlies this is all I can say for now. Sucks ass I know I know. But before I go, I have a theory I would love to share with you all! So you see people in the hallways holding hands right? Okay so this is the thing:

People who hold hands like really tight, u know like if they let go it'll kill them, they are a newish couple or a couple that isn't very comfortable with each other. so they feel like if they don’t' hold on to each other for dear life it'll be like the end of their relationship because holding hands is all there is TO that relationship.

But then there are people who hold hands like really loosely or just like whatever-like. THESE couples are super comfortable with each other. They hold hands because they like each other and enjoy each other's company. It’s not their only tie to keeping it all together.

So what do you all think? Brilliant I know! Lol alright much luv ~ leave propz plz! I get lonely without them :( hehehe

-Alecia

Currently Reading The Prince of Tides By PAT CONROY see related

Hey everyone! Thanks you two for the comment! Lol ~ starting out slow. Alright well my weekend was great! I got to hang with people from youth group and watch a movie. First we saw THE NOTEBOOK! OMG the ultimate movie! And then we started A Cinderella Story but my parents are gay (but I love them I really do) so I had to leave early. Can you believe I DIDN’T see the end?

So yeah, and then I went to Scott’s house after youth group. Since none of you know I should explain that he is the love of my life. He is sooo sweet and so funny! Like he is the ultimate. Well if he was really gorgeous too then THAT would be the ultimate, but sadly he’s not. I mean normally I am SUPER shallow and boys have to be gorgeous for me to like them. But no, he’s not, which makes be proud because this is such a step for me.  Be proud ladies!

Alright so that’s all for now. Sorry it takes me forever to update. Cuz like I can’t do it at home. If I do my parents will check the history on the internet and see that I was on xanga. That would be my death. So I’ll try to update. I love you guys who read! I wish I could go around to make new friends but like I can’t. I never have time. L I’ll try! Much luv

-Alecia